Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Closing 2015

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.
Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters – whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.
Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden?
You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened.
You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that.
But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister.
Everyone is finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.
Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.
That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home.
Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts – and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.
Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them.
Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose.
Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood.
Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.
Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the “ideal moment.”
Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back.
Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person – nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need.
This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.
Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life.
Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.
Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.
Paulo Coelho

Wednesday, December 18, 2013


I promise you I will try harder to be better. I have battled with things inside me for longer than you know; I do not know what they are or why they are there, I only know they feel manageable, defeatable, when I am around you. -Tylor Knott Gregson

Monday, December 9, 2013


the moon glows, the sun shines
sometimes the clouds move slow

the flowers grow, the leaves fall
the graffiti's painted then removed from the wall

the tree's are tall, the grass gets cut
the waves crash the beach, the squirrel grabs the nuts

the lightning struck the thunder, the summer swallowed the spring
the winter was always windy, the weather was just a thing

strangers conversate about...no rain long drought
seeds sprout, bee's sting, birds sing, babies pout

rainbows and waterfalls...mountains in the sky
questions answered by questions that start off with the word why

seasons change, and everything hardly ever seems the same
some feel joy, some feel pain, the moth's get drawn to the flame

the purpose of life, will make you think twice, but for now will not be explained

-Bru Lei

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Ethnically Ambiguous?

Am I ethnically ambiguous?

So I almost fell on the bus this morning on my way to work, but a nice gentleman with long grey dreads helped me find my seat. He literally reached out his hand for me to grab it (as I held tightly to my lunchbox). He looked at me and asked in Spanish, "Ere tu cubana?"...

I responded in like language, "No, Mexicana, pero tengo muchas ganas de visitar a Cuba. Tu?"

Dude: "Cubano" (with a smile)

Me: "De que parte eres?"...

Dude: "La Havana...y en donde tu trabaja?"
Me: "En el hospital, y tu?"

Dude: "Sabia que tu trabajaba alli. Soy instructor fisico de educacion"...and we just chatted for a bit, quite delightful.

And so I'm getting off the bus, and we shake hands, "Fue un placer"...and he just puts his hand on my head and smiles. I'm like, oook, but mad cool guy. Anyhow, being as I can almost find anything I search for on the internets, I did...this is the guy I ran into this morning: http://angeldcuba.com/home.cfm Pretty distinguishable.
I'm sharing this because you just never know the path the person next to you has walked, and the encounter was, simply put...SINCERE, and impressionable.

Anyone want to join me for one of his next performances?!!

Saturday, January 5, 2013


"And for a lot of us who didn’t get as kids what we needed to get from the people who were supposed to give it to us, we can’t really grow up until we find a way to give what we need to ourselves."



Saturday, October 20, 2012

Silly Questions on a Harvest Moon

My 30 plus vices have blessed me tonight with a nonchalant view of what's right and what's might.
Even some silly folk have stoked me with a ponderous moment. What is of concern, and what is of no atonement.

Inquisitive as I am, I have inquieted my qi into a draining philo force. So no more.
Inspired by these lovely kin, I carry on with peace within.

She smiles reflections down on you; so rejoice and make the choice. Let's reap the Harvest.

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Tides of Change

Your moonshine basks my mental thoughts with vibes like those in sync with tides